Trapped Between Paychecks and Purpose

It’s exhausting being in a space where you’re not valued where you’re overlooked. I’m talking about the corporate workplace here.
And honestly, even when I am seen or valued at work, it usually just means everyone ends up deferring to me anyway… which isn’t exactly a win.

Look, I hate working a 9–5. I hate working with people. It’s unpredictable, and I’m a sensitive person — like, deeply sensitive — and I get hurt all the time. But I feel stuck. Trapped. Because I need the money. Bills don’t pay themselves.

I keep going back and forth about whether I should look for a new job. Maybe I’ll get a bit of a salary bump. Maybe things will be slightly better. But maybe they won’t. Maybe they’ll get worse. Who knows.

And the hardest part? I just want to pour myself into Everyone Left.
I want to write more stories, share more experiences, get better at filming, and slowly perfect the art of storytelling.

But getting into that creative mindset — the one where things flow, where I’m not obsessing over every detail and trying to make it perfect — that’s hard.

I don’t know where I’m going with this, other than just to brain dump it all here.
See you in the next incoherent post!