I don’t REALLY mean it, don’t leave me

Ever felt like you’re watching a world you’ve

pushed away, but still wish you were part of?

I scrolled past a video of my old friends celebrating a birthday. Laughing, smiling—together. And I wasn’t there. And why would I be? I

pushed them away, and made it SO hard for them to ever get close to me.


But Even though I’m the one who closed the door, I still you to come knocking. But instead, I’m sitting here, Watching .. and feel like I’m nothing.”